party is all i need!

being so stress lately =(

staying up late studying =s

being hibernating at home for like..lets c..around a month i guess..eek

i need to party!hehehe!

nvm!mon..i m free!=D

p/s:i do not want to care about anything anymore of what is happening

i want to be neutral =)

just dont pissed me off, is all i can say

xoxo

loving the boots!

<3

love this boots!

i wish i can have it..

i know the boots maybe 4 or 5 inches tall

but wth i dont care even though it make me look freaking tall =P

three words

i LOVE it! =)

warehouse sale!

warehouse sale for zara and pull and bear =) <3

went with sookie to check it out

some of the clothes not bad..v found some..price affordable too

but in the end sookie din bought anything =P HAHA
i bought a red jeans =D this help disstress me =)

ice cream n paintball!

suddenly i craving for dessert..yummy ice cream =)

ice cream make me happy XD

and i want to go paintball..shoot emily,sarah n sookie asses =p n also sharon hehe..n vanessa too woot!that will help me release my stress n tension level xP

p/s:glad to know they are by my side =)

will i able or able not?

mon - coll start

will b seeing him back =s

during this past weeks..i did not think or even miss him cus i try my best not to text him or talk to him..i did it =) a progess huh?=)

but after acknowledging that coll going to start..n seeing him will b often..the feeling is back

i scared to be hurt..

will i able to move on?

pls pls..dont b too nice to me..or even talk to me.oh pls

cus i rather to be hurt by u this way then seeing u so close with other person which will make me hurt more.

pls b mean to me!pls..help me move on

i do not want to stuck to be in love with u.i want to move on!

Stop with that act,pls!

thx for making my day,dad!

ur mood swing is getting worst fyi!

everytime whenever i woke up,u will start to feel moody n ignoring me n start slamming things down.wth u wan!

i cant take this anymore!

arggh!if nobody did anything to u,can u stop showing ur mood without any reason!@#

this is killing me!i cant take it!i going to breakdown soon!

arggh!

Holiday seems short

being going quite a lot this week

lol..thurs,fri,sat...damn!three days straight!hehe!n this three day i being eating.i m pampering myself..i should start controlling =P

getting fat =(

one more week to go before my year 2 start.had a feeling is going to b more tiring n stress.

hope i able to cope with it n still enjoy my life with my buddies n family =)

p/s: Siu Ching,stay strong babe!i will be here for you =)

so cheer up..=)

pyramid - brussel - picca - OU

Here is the pic

stolen from sarah n emily =p haha

In pyramid : A&W

Sarah : What u looking at huh! =P

is vanessa xD haha!

Emily as usual..cute!=)me in the cinema taking sarah,emily and vanessa pic..lol!

n here comes tutti frutti!yummy!<3 Emily got me addicted to it!

Emily and sarah got lock up in the bird cage..poor ppl hehe!

aw..dont cry..mummy Sarah will come later to safe u =p

Me and vanessa in the ferris wheel..haha!there is still a small kid in us hehe!

=)

Me trying heels in nose.the heels i m holding is mine now baby!=D

In Brussel

Sook Yin and me!=) <3

Fauzan and sook yin XD hehe!

Emily hand block my drink =( hands off!=P

me and emily <3

Marble,Mike,Mandee,Duffy

our beers!hehe!

Tequilla shot!sook yin and fauzan drink.lol

i wanna try it next time!=D

Sharon calculating?haha!she is doing math with marble while chilling.they just love math xD

In Piccadilies!

me and sharon =)

three ppl who is not themselve at the moment xP

i m the only one who did not look pink..hehe..tsk tsk u ppl =p

vanessa cutting lamb chop for her kid,sarah =P

two days out

fri and sat

out with vanessa,sookie,sarah,emily

fri went brussel with sharon all too..n sookie IT friend lol!funny moment!lol

then head to picca..though going to poppy to meet up with sam but tak jadi..but is ok..there is always next time =)

sookie was high as usual =s =P

haha

then emily, sarah n sookie steal my beloved bed frm me =( =p hehe!

then today head to ou.

i m going to be broke =s damn!

pic will come up after this =)

hate it when there is nothing to do

Not to say hate it when nothing to do..i feel happy n free but in other words i feel...is ok..i shall wait till this fri..to enjoy myself =)

n after that mayb go watch movie with candy all

n not to forget my darling chai huey.sorry babe

hehe.i promised u on mon.i wrote it on my schedule d haha!

sem 3 done!=)

finals is over =)

there goes my year 1 of degree =D

is time to party baby!

have 2 weeks break..going to enjoy it.hehe

having a fun day out with both of homies =)

Despite all the hurt that i had for the pass few days and the anger i have in me have finally gone away

Stuck myself at home and just going out to relative hse with parents, doesnt fully help me to recover

But after today,i went out with some of my homies

they are crazy women!=) hehe!which complete part of my life hehe!=)

love u sarah and emily!=)

p/s:wish my other homies were here too espeacially sa and sookie =(

Guess whose shoes is this =p

two pretty monkeys =) =p

haha..the "drunkards" lol!


v are picnic-ing =p

haha..fun moment in sunway coll huh,sarah?=p considering to come back again?=p

hehe!xD the monkey i carrying actually was holding a love hehe!

n the love i give it to sarah,emily,sookie,sa,melissa,candy,mariam and chai huey (even though v have something and gods know wat is it about but i still love u) and YOU (=p)!

yummy!=) craving for more..hehe!next time i bring mel all to go eat this hehe!nice!


the "big big" eye girl =p haha!


camwhore queen!=)

YOU just like to pissed me off!

pls YOU have to understand!

and to be honestly..whateva i say or give opinion it does not satisfied YOU all the time!

tell me once when i say out something..YOU actually agree with me?

but anyway i cant blame YOU for that..

is because every single ppl have different point of view women!

YOU came from different background n me too.But i do respect YOUR advice!

So maybe,could it be possible for YOU to think on my side for sometimes!Do i need to ask for it from YOU?

YOU have to know that most of the ppl around me and i think YOU do know!frm small itself i being mixing with the same kind of ppl..obviously it affect me!SO DO YOU!

and about the both day..fine the first day of CNY i do ffk u n is my bad..but hello i did text u about the second day of cny..N SAY i will TEXT YOU IF I ABLE TO MAKE IT!means i m not confirm!thats not consider ffk =.=

ARRGH!n YOU WANT TO TALK about HEARTBROKEN isnt it?

fine!when u having prob...n u feel sad..did i like saying straight away to YOU that YOU are acting naive or something like that?i did not rite!

at least wait till that person calm down themselves and become normal back..then only YOU tell.

is it possible for YOU to do so next time?OR MUST I ASK U?

Seriously, after seeing what u wrote in ur blog..u talk as if YOU are always the right one..n i m the WRONG one.i was planning not to spill out on YOU.but wat u wrote kinda pissed me off!

n my dear,i do know u well!yes too well!i know u don really like does western style.but seriously the way u write in ur blog..as if u racist against them.

and if u r my best freind..u should know my background..my unc is like western.they are open..so hello i being seeing them n living with them for like 19 years over..n obviously i got a bit of their influence.is just the same case as u!

i accept wat u say to me in MSN yesterday

But do u know different ppl have different opinion?=.= i think u do!

then wtf u r so mad for!i m the one who suppose to be mad n sad after seeing that pic..n u r mad!

even if u wan to straight forward to me..can u at least let me cool down then say it!i was so freaking sad yesterday n u add in more sadness into me.so nice of u =)..oh yes seriously thx!

but in the end i listen to wat u say for your info!

u know wat,mayb i keep bugging u with my problems n my secrets thats why..then i will say SORRY here!

AND i promise i won bug u anymore since i always pissed u off rite..n i m always the WRONG one rite

probably after u reading this...u will say again that i m wrong..have the wrong way of thinking..

but at least i know something.."is not always that i have the correct opinion!" GET IT!?@

so ok bye MY FRIEND!

"rawr rawr"

a "rawr rawr" cny lol!
frm cny eve till now..being going out collecting ang pau =p
is a good thing..cus money finally coming into my wallet hehe!
but hot weather + tiring + night study = dieng!lol!
short sem is driving me crazy!
one more week after this week then is final =s damn!
but luckily is just two subject but is heavy..=s
wth man!
me need to party n enjoy after this three week is over!

cny and valentine!

woot!cny and valentine!<3

ang pau here i come =D

and waiting choco frm sookie =P

n flower frm chai huey!

hehe!

let go!

u may hear a lot of ppl saying just confront each other if anything.

But when the times come is hard.yes is hard!

I experienced it!is hard to confront even if i want to

Scared might hurt that person OR that person might think that i am sensitive lol!

I not sure i being sensitive or wat

But i m pretty sure v as a human do have this feeling...

sometimes where you do not want to lose a friend which u treated as a homies =)

There is something happen

Part of it i think i started it cus not confronting and just walk off frm them

Sorry to them.n u know who r u =)

Really sorry!

I can feel insecure sometimes but i can control it.this time i cant..mayb is the hormones =P haha!

Reason the insecure and scared is because..

I had lose one of my homies who is now in segi!

who do not even talk to me and even if she do she just ask for help and the next moment i heard nothing frm her

N even if i call, everytime she cut or she won ans!wtf!

I felt like my heart got stab by a knive.that pain..i can remember!

Maybe thats y i m scared.

Ppl may think i m sensitive

But i m pretty sure when u lose one of ur bestest freind..u can feel the pain.

Whateva is it,hoping things will get better this year.

Is being not a very good moment to me..

First was him n now this =s but everything is over now.

Let go of the past n move on.thats wat life for rite? =)

Life cant be full of happy moment if not how v learn n grow up =)

the time is now

is time

to study now

concentrate!

and enjoy after the first week of march!

be patient!

time pass fast =D

up and down

In life,nothing is perfect.one moment u are having a happy spirit..next moment u are sad
but the moment u are sad, the friend that are by ur side..they are ur true friend!
some friend use u for granted!when they having prob, v sacrifice for them as in spending time with them more..listen to their prob..try to help them.but in return they do not care about u when u having prob.that hurts than falling for a guy who do not like u..
whateva is it..no point being crying over this..at least i know...
life still goes on
just stand up straight and walk front..i cant turn back anymore

p/s: thx to izyan and siu ching for being my side.not to forget sa,sarah n the rest =)..u guys entertain me.lol

and hoping siu ching,u will get better.stay strong babe!

A sudden craving for dessert

dessert!<3 totally craving for dessert rite now =)

dessert make me happy =D..the sweetness...yum yumyes!chocolate!=)..mmmm

ice-cream..cooling n tasty!

and not to forget cake!hmm..i think is tiramisu i guesswhateva the flavour is..still yummy!=)

p/s: starting to like honor society =)

loving it!

developing phobia!=s

went and took the booster jab =s..and the last jab will be the end of june!arggh!

i think i just develop phobia on doctor lol!

So joanna...

sorry if somewhere around the future after u officially become a doctor.i might have phobia on you =P

hehehe!

Please,please,please stop it!

tell me wat u want!?@

u confused me =s

sometimes u ignore me and walk off

sometimes u lyn me as in u r giving me hope

so pls tell me wat u wan!?

i cant take it

cus it does hurt me by not knowing how u feel

i do not want any false hope frm u.

i know u might not like me,but pls stop giving me those hope!

one moment u r this and another moment u r that! =s

Library,class and training room!

Mariam ask me to meet her in the library for assignment discussion.say 11.30 but she came at 11.45..haih =P

Then here comes Siu Ching =D <3...then Szu Kim =) not to forget Candy!hehe!then well we technically have fun in the library..hehe!

And class here we come..again at first i able to concentrate and later on feel like sleeping =P..is just so my routine!=P

Later,in communication skills class, we watch the movie called "parenthood" for our assignment.We suppose to analyse it.

The show was not bad..is funny.LOL

Somehow the show look familiar..think i watch it before..but forget

After class finish,i teman mariam to go buy food at san fancisco

That girl i tell u..she cant stand the temptation of the coffee =P..

Donnu whether she got buy or not..cus my dad was already at the entrance waiting

Definely going to die tmr

6 hour lecture frm 9 till 12

Then replacement class frm 2.30 till 5.30

But i aint sure whether i wan to go for the replacement class =P

hehe!

is just another day

u had my last presentation for my informative speech..turn out not so ok the marks.at average..have to do better next time
then candy was a bit down...babe cheer up!i m here for u =)

i cant predict him.he is so unpredictable.=s
n yea cny is coming n here comes my ang pau baby!have to collect ang pau frm chai huey and melissa haha!=P

lately...

sorry peeps

lately been busy n not to forget that i m so tiring!

assignments =s is a good thing that there is no mid test.if not i hang myself.seriously!

really need to enjoy myself one of this day!=s been worrying sick for my biz law =(

Exhausted!

feeling so freaking tired n exhausted.my eye barely even open.i m forcing myself to stay awake.assignments not done and there is studying to do on biz law and comm skill!=s arggh!not only that.There is only freaking 5 weeks left to finals!wtf!arggh!
totally need a long sleep on sat!

temptation!

sarah just send me a link to a clothes website!is so freaking nice..me likey!
then ch also send!hehe.saw some nice wan
is so tempting me to get it!arrgh..should close up the link rite now =P
but hey this is the only way to stop me frm thinking about him!

here it is!

stold it frm mel =P hehe

looks like my buddies are getting ready =P

candy ju-onn version =P if only u have a longer hair hehe!mel is so so going to kill me for this =P but hey this is my fav!hehe
v are in opera n waiting for some of our freind who are 1 hour late =s
while waiting...
texting scene lol!


candy n me <3 love ya buddy!

the acrobatics in opera..cool rite?

half way through the nite..he is the first one who is high lol!u r a funny dude,alex!=)

me and mel <3

n here come sam =) n hey spot wat is similar between some of us?=P


the bottle is mine baby!=P

and there goes our night

p/s: the bartender wanted us to go out cus is closing haha

a night out to opera

went to opera on 14 jan (thurs)
candy n mel sleepover at my hse..took some of their pic when they r putting make up =P but damn the pic all is in mell camera =P
after v change our clothes..v relise v are all wearing green n v did not PLAN at all

well great minds thinks alike haha!

then opera here v come =D

however,still prefer MOS hehe!

then well after that..hmm lets not talk about it =P

pic will be upload soon if i can get it frm mel =P

woot!

today me n mel all plan to go pyramid since this is the only week v still can enjoy.lol then mel trust me with her car =) <3 BUT jarod went n rampas the car key lol!
was so scared of his driving =P haha but turn out is ok lol!
then pyramid here v come hehe
first v plan to eat at mahattan but ended up eating mcd..haih =P lol!

n me want to watch shelock holmes!damn! =(

no more!

time to back to coll which means time to be nerdy..lol!

cant be too sad

results just out today
i m relieved did not fail but the result aint ok
a bit sad for it..but i cant turn back time

my new year resolution is work harder on my studies n do not want to bother those feeling of insecure anymore!who give a damn about that!

i wish

i wish n want to get out frm HERE

UK is my destination baby!

bye to my holidays

there goes my holidays,another 2 more day to rest my brain before letting it to function again =P
damn!really wish time could slow down a bit!

Kevin Rudolf have new song
Kevin Rudolf ft Lil Wayne ft Jay Sean - I Made it <3
not bad!me likey the song =)

Dull n sad is the word

my life?
is being so dull and sad lately.No, actually since i enter coll, 2008 was the worst year to be honest for some reason..which sometimes i remember it,thought i could forget it but deep down inside it keep flashing back..that wound in my heart that is done by "him" cant be patch up anymore..

however,
things seems to get better after that
...but i don feel really happy about it

well at least i m satisfied
hope it will be much more better soon =)

Today?

Today is just another boring day =s
BUT

after seeing him..he just make my day =D
isnt he so cute?=)

And there is 3 more hour to go for my dinner at some restaurant.Honestly,i dont really feel like going tho..forced by parents =s

feeling so...

i just feel like shutting down myself
so tired for having those unpleasent feeling and thoughts..
but is ok, life still have to go on

p/s : this is my first time to blog =P